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Title: LOST IN MY MIND
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Blog Entry: MY FRIENDS, AS ALWAYS I WISH THE BEST FOR YOU. I HOPE U HAVE BEEN HAVING A GOOD WEEKEND AND THAT THIS WILL BE A GOOD WEEK FOR YOU. I'M FEELING EXHAUSTED. VERY WEAK. I'M HAVING SO MUCH PAIN THAT I CAN BARELY THINK. LAST WEEK WAS VERY ROUGH. I COULD BARELY MOVE. HAD SOME DAYS WHEN I COULDNT WALK ON MY OWN BUT THRU EVERYTHING, GOD HAS BEEN WITH ME. ONE NIGHT I WAS BARELY BREATHING. THE PAIN IN MY CHEST WAS SO TERRIBLE. I LITERALLY CRIED OUT TO GOD FOR HELP. MY HUBBY WASNT ANYWHERE NEAR BY. ON FRIDAY EVENING I ALMOST LOST MY MIND. FOR THE SECOND TIME IN MY LIFE, THE INSIDE OF MY THROAT WAS BURNT BADLY.  THE PAIN MADE ME ALMOST GO CRAZY. I HAD VISITORS COMING AND I PRAYED SO HARD THAT I COULD SPEAK. I WASHED MY THROAT SO MUCH. MY HUBBY WAS SO EXHAUSTED, I KNEW IF HE WENT AROUND THE WHEEL, I COULD PROBABLY LOSE HIM SO I DIDNT GO TO THE HOSPITAL THAT NIGHT. MY HUBBY DOES PRACTICALLY EVERYTHING IN THE HOME ALONG WITH GOING OUT TO WORK. I USED TO ENJOY COOKING BUT WHEN A CONDITION GOT WORSE WHICH AFFECTS ME BEING IN THE KITCHEN AROUND HOT THINGS, HE IMMEDIATELY HAD ME STOP COOKING. HE REFUSED TO TAKE ANY CHANCES OF ME ALMOST LOSING MY LIFE BECAUSE I WANTED AND NEEDED TO COOK FOR HIM. I MISS IT BUT I KNOW ITS NOT SAFE. I'M SO BLESSED IN THE HUSBAND I HAVE. NOT MANY MEN IN THIS WORLD WOULD DO WHAT HE DOES. EACH DAY, I GIVE GOD THANKS FOR HIM. I RARELY EVER GET A VISITOR WHICH IS WHY I WANTED TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK WITH MY GUESTS. I REALLY PRAYED. MY HUBBY HELPED TO GET ME DRESSED AND PUT ME BACK INTO BED AND WHEN MY GUESTS ARRIVED, I WAS ABLE TO SPEAK. IMMEDIATELY AFTER THEY LEFT, MY VOICE WENT. NO KIDDING. I CAN BARELY SPEAK. I HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL THIS WEEK SO I WILL HAVE MY THROAT CHECKED. IT WONT BE NICE EXPLAINING HOW I GOT BURNT. I'LL KNOW AT THAT TIME IF I WILL NEED TO SEE AN E.N.T. DOCTOR. NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING ON THE ROAD BECAUSE ITS ALWAYS SO PAINFUL ON MY BACK. AND BEING IN THE HOSPITAL ISNT USUALLY A PLEASANT EXPERIENCE. I FORGOT TO SAY THAT THURSDAY I BEGAN HAVING SYMTOMS OF EITHER A STROKE OR PANIC ATTACK. I HAVE A HISTORY OF BOTH PLUS MINOR HEART ATTACKS. FORTUNATELY, I HAD THE EXACT MEDICATIONS ON HAND THAT I'M USUALLY GIVEN. I SPOKE TO MY DOCTOR AND I WENT THRU THE PAINFUL PROCESS OF HAVING AN ANGINA ATTACK. MY HEART WAS ALWAYS WEAK AS A CHILD SO I GUESS IT MADE IT EASY FOR ME TO HAVE HEART PROBLEMS AS AN ADULT. MY MIND IS ALL OVER THE PLACE THAT I REALLY CAN BARELY THINK. SATURDAY WAS EXTRA CHALLENGING. I HAD SUCH A BAD ATTACK OF BRONCHITIS WITH COPD THAT IT BROUGHT ON ANOTHER ANGINA ATTACK. THERE IS SO MUCH I WANT TO SAY BUT I'M REALLY EXHAUSTED. AND THIS MORNING I GOT THE NEWS THAT A WOMAN I KNEW WAS MURDERED ALONG WITH ONE OF HER SONS YESTERDAY MORNING. I EVEN GOT TO SEE A PIC OF THE MURDERED VICTIMS. I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GO NOW BECAUSE I'M REALLY DIZZY. I PRAY THAT ALL WHO ARE GOING THRU VARIOUS CHALLENGIES THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER FOR YOU. I'M COUGHING SO MUCH AND IT HURTS SO MUCH. I'M GONNA REST FOR A WHILE.  TAKE CARE MY FRIENDS. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL. HUGS FROM ARIA.