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MY MIND
Posted On 08/21/2017 07:34:05 by ASHESAM50

HELLO EVERYONE, PEACE AND BLESSINGS TO ALL. IN MY MIND, I'VE WRITTEN ALL I WANT TO SAY BUT I KNOW IN REALITY I CANT EVEN DO QUARTER OF THAT.

ALTHOUGH EACH DAY HEALTHWISE IS AGONY FOR ME, I DO GIVE GOD THANKS DAILY FOR MY LIFE. OF COURSE, THAT DOESNT MEAN, I WOULDNT APPRECIATE SOME EASE FROM THE PAIN.  

SOMETIMES I'LL TELL SOMEONE THAT WHAT HE OR SHE IS DOING IS PHYSICALLY HURTING ME. DOESNT ALWAYS HELP. FOR OVER 25 YEARS I'VE HAD A DAILY TERRIBLE HEADACHE. COUPLE DAYS OR MORE WEEKLY, IT TURNS INTO A MIGRAINE. I REALLY HAVE NO MEMORY WHAT IT FEELS LIKE NOT TO HAVE A HEADACHE. RECENTLY SOMEONE DROPPED A BOX OF HEAVY BOOKS DIRECTLY BESIDE MY HEAD. IMMEDIATELY, THE TEARS SLOWLY FLOWED. MANY TIMES PEOPLE WILL NOT UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION OR EVEN YOURS. I HONESTLY WOULDNT WANT THE PERSON TO ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND IT ALL BECAUSE HE OR SHE WOULD HAVE TO EXPERIENCE IT AND ITS NOT EASY. I KNOW OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE KILLED THEMSELVES BECAUSE THEY CAN NO LONGER TOLERATE THE PAIN OR THEY ARE SO HOOKED TO DRUGS, U BARELY RECOGNIZE THE INDIVIDUAL. WHAT I DO EXPECT THO IS SOME FORM OF UNDERSTANDING THAT WHAT I'M GOING THRU IS DIFFICULT AND SO, NO ONE WILL MAKE THINGS WORSE. I KNOW THAT MANY DONT INTENTIONALLY CAUSE PAIN BUT SOMETIMES SOME PEOPLE DONT THINK.

IT TOOK MANY YEARS BEFORE I WOULD FREELY TALK ABOUT THE SERIOUSNESS OF MY HEALTH PROBLEMS AND THAT WAS AND STILL IS BECAUSE I DONT LIKE ATTENTION BEING DRAWN TO ME. BUT I'M HONEST IN SAYING THAT I'VE LEARNED OVER THE YEARS THAT EVERYONE NEEDS SOME FORM OF SUPPORT. FOR MANY YEARS I WENT WITHOUT THAT. NOW, I WONDER HOW I SURVIVED ALL THOSE YEARS WITHOUT A KIND WORD. NOT TALKING ABOUT SUPPORT FROM MY PARENTS. I ALWAYS HAD THAT FROM CHILDHOOD WHEN I BEGAN TO GET VERY ILL. RIGHT NOW THE RAIN IS FALLING AND FOR ME THAT ALWAYS MEANS EXTRA EXCRUCIATING PAIN. EVERY FORM OF WEATHER HURTS ME. THE HEAT MAKES ME EXTRA DIZZY, MAKES ME BLACK OUT AND MANY OTHER THINGS. COOL OR COLD WEATHER, DAMP OR RAINY WEATHER CAUSES SEVERE TO EXCRUCIATING PAIN, SPECIFICALLY JOINT PAIN. SOMETIMES I HAVE TO ASK GOD FOR STRENGTH TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN. YET IF I HAVE A CHOICE BETWEEN HOT AND COOL OR SLIGHTLY COLD, I'LL TAKE THE LATTER. I WONT SPEAK OF VERY COLD WEATHER BECAUSE THAT IS A KILLER BUT I'D STILL TAKE THAT. LOL. THANKFULLY, I RARELY DEAL WITH EXTREME COLD WEATHER.

MY FRIENDS, HAVING GOOD HEALTH IS SUCH A BLESSING. MANY TIMES WHEN I TAKE A PICTURE, I'VE JUST SEEN A DOCTOR OR I'M SO ILL I CAN BARELY MOVE. I CAN REALLY ACT WHEN IT COMES TO PICTURES. LOL. I MISS THE THINGS I CAN NO LONGER DO BUT I GIVE GOD THANKS THAT I'M NOT ALWAYS COMPLETELY HELPLESS. THERE IS SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR. BELIEVE ME, BLESSINGS COME IN SO MANY WAYS. ITS EASY TO BE DISCOURAGED IF ILL, ESPECIALLY TERMINALLY. I KNOW. I'M THERE. BUT MY FRIENDS, IF U ONLY KNEW HOW MUCH GOD LOVES YOU. I'M SURE MANY OF U DO. GOD BLESSES US IN MANY WAYS BUT SOMETIMES WE ARE SO CAUGHT UP WITH COMPLAINING THAT WE MISS THE BLESSINGS. I'M ASKING YOU PLS NOT TO LET THAT BE US. WE ARE LOVED. LETS CONTINUE PRAYING FOR EACH OTHER AND ENCOURAGING EACH OTHER. GOOD ENCOURAGEMENT GOES A LONG WAY. I KNOW I'M THANKFUL WHEN I RECEIVE IT AND THO HARD, I TRY TO GET PAST THE NEGATIVE.

THIS SITE IS A BLESSING. FOR ME, EVEN A SENTENCE SAYING I'M REMEMBERED MEANS ALOT TO ME. I ENJOY SEARCHING FOR LOVELY PIC COMMENTS TO SEND. I JUST CAN NO LONGER SEND AS OFTEN AS I'D LIKE TO. I JUST LIKE BEING APART OF THE COMMUNITY HERE AND I'M THANKFUL FOR US. WITH GOD'S HELP, LETS TRY NOT TO TAKE EACH OTHER FOR GRANTED. I'M HUMAN. I MAKE MISTAKES AT TIMES. I HAVE VERY BAD SHORT TERM MEMORY DUE TO BRAIN TRAUMA. PLS, IF SOMETHING IS WRONG REGARDING ME, SPEAK TO ME KINDLY. I'M NOT HERE TO HURT ANYONE AND IT WOULD BE NICE NOT TO BE HURT AND EASILY JUDGED AT TIMES. HAVE TO STOP NOW SO AM GONNA GO. 

THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ. HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK. HUGS, ARIA.



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