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THANKYOU LORD
Posted On 08/27/2017 05:26:31 by ASHESAM50

I'M HERE TRYING TO WRITE AND I JUST WANT TO CRY BUT ITS HARD. I CAN CRY EASILY AT A SAD SONG, A SAD MOVIE, ANYTHING SAD, FRIENDS AND RELATIVES HURTING, EVEN STRANGERS BUT SINCE I WAS A CHILD I ALWAYS HAD A HARD TIME CRYING OVER MY PAIN NO MATTER HOW BAD IT WAS OR IS. THE PAST COUPLE YEARS, THAT SEEMS TO BE CHANGING AT TIMES AND IT SEEMS UNREAL.



I'M VERY EMOTIONAL BECAUSE I'M REMEMBERING ALL I WENT THRU 2 SUNDAYS AGO. I STILL HAVE TESTS TO DO BUT THE DOCTORS SAY THEY CANT UNDERSTAND ME BECAUSE WHAT WOULD TOTALLY PARALYZE SOMEONE OR KILL THE PERSON, MY BODY KEEPS FIGHTING. EVEN AS WEAK AS I AM, THEY THOUGHT I WOULD JUST GIVE UP NOW.



I'VE ALWAYS HAD A STRONG THRESHOLD FOR PAIN. SO MANY STORIES. I KNOW THAT I'M VERY ILL BUT FRANKLY, IT ANNOYS ME WHEN I'M TOLD ITS TIME TO GIVE UP. WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE TO TELL ME THESE THINGS !! FRIENDS, WHEN UR BATTLING FOR YOUR LIFE AND SOMEONE COMES AND TELLS YOU TO JUST GIVE UP OR PLAINLY TAKE MY LIFE, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW THAT MESSES UP THE MIND. I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE ILL ON THE PLANET. THERE ARE OTHERS WHO ARE EVEN WORSE. DONT COMPARE ME TO ANOTHER PERSON.



SORRY FRIENDS, AS I TOLD U, THOSE FALLS LAST SUNDAY WERE TRAUMATIC AND I'M RELIVING THEM MAINLY BECAUSE OF THE PAIN.



I TAKE BEING ALIVE VERY SERIOUSLY. I'M THANKFUL THAT I CAN WRITE AT THIS MOMENT. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS TO BE THANKFUL FOR. YESTERDAY, I ALMOST LOST MY MIND FROM THE INTENSE HEAT. I CANNOT BEGIN TO DESCRIBE WHAT IT DOES TO ME.

I'VE BEEN ASKED MANY TIMES HOW IT IS THAT I'M ALMOST ALWAYS SMILING OR LAUGHING.


I'VE BEEN ASKED IF I'M NOT ANGRY WITH GOD FOR MAKING ME SICK AND ILL. I HAD TO TELL THOSE PEOPLE THAT GOD DIDNT MAKE ME ILL. I AGREE THAT HE ALLOWS IT BUT ITS FOR ME TO TRUST HIM AND TO KNOW THAT HE HAS HIS REASONS FOR ALLOWING THE VARIOUS THINGS THAT TAKE PLACE.


I COULDNT BE ANGRY WITH GOD. HE'S MY HEAVENLY FATHER AND HE'S LOOKING AFTER ME.


I LOOK ON THE FACT THAT THERE ARE DAYS I CAN SLOWLY WALK WITHOUT THE AID OF SOMETHING AS LONG AS SOMEONE IS NEAR TO ME, I THINK ON THE FACT THAT IF I NEED HELP TO WALK , THEN I HAVE MY CRUTCH AND FOR PLACES THAT ARE TOO FAR TO WALK, I HAVE MY WHEELCHAIR.  MY ARMS ARE VERY ILL, I CAN BARELY MOVE THEM SO I GIVE THANKS THAT I HAVE MY DARLING TIRED HUBBY TO PUSH THE CHAIR WHEN NECESSARY. I NOW NEED ANOTHER CRUTCH WHICH I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL WITH BECAUSE OF THE TORN LIGAMENTS IN MY NECK AND SHOULDERS. IT CAUSES ALOT OF PRESSURE ON MY BODY.



WHEN SOMEONE SENDS ME A COMFORTING THOUGHT, I'M THANKFUL. I'M SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE MY GAITHER SONGS TO LISTEN TO WHEN MY HEAD ALLOWS IT. I'VE BEEN ASKING MYSELF WHEN I'LL GET NEW DVDS BUT UNFORTUNATELY, I HAVE ALL THESE MEDICAL BILLS TO DEAL WITH.

FRIENDS, NO MATTER HOW BAD THINGS MAY BE, I TELL U, UR NOT ALONE.

THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU AND WHO LOVE YOU.

I KNOW I WONT BE ABLE TO DO MUCH WRITING FOR THE REST OF THE DAY BUT I'M THANKFUL I'M WRITING NOW.


U DONT HAVE TO LOOK FAR TO FIND SOMETHING TO BE THANKFUL FOR. IF U HAVE GOOD HEALTH, THAT'S A MAJOR BLESSING. IF THERE ARE PROBLEMS BUT THEY ARE UNDER CONTROL, THAT'S A BLESSING. IF U HAVE A LOVING SPOUSE, HOW WONDERFUL THAT IS. PLS DONT LET THE NEGATIVE THINGS WEIGH U DOWN. I DO KNOW HOW EASY IT IS FOR THAT TO HAPPEN. THAT'S WHY I'M THANKFUL FOR ANY HELP I GET.



DONT GET ME WRONG, I'M IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN BUT IF I SIMPLY DWELL ON THAT, I'LL NEVER MOVE AGAIN. U HAVE TO WANT TO LIVE. THERE IS A PURPOSE FOR YOUR LIFE.



I'M SORRY BUT MY HANDS ARE NOW LETTING ME KNOW THAT I HAVE TO STOP. AND THE HEADACHE REFUSES TO GIVE ME SOME EASE BUT IM NOT GIVING UP.


I'M VERY THANKFUL FOR MY FRIENDS HERE.

DEAR FRIENDS, I ASK YOU TODAY, WHAT ARE YOU THANKFUL FOR ? U R ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS. TAKE CARE.



HUGS AND LOVE.


GOD BLESS,

ARIA.



AS I ALWAYS SAY : REMEMBER TO SHARE THE GIFT OF A SMILE WITH SOMEONE. 




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