You can spend the rest of your life saying what if.
What if I had been there? What if I had tried harder?
When it's all said and done, what ifs don't change the way things are now.
The present is what we have to deal with. During the nights, especially for me, the regrets creep in...oh, and the IF ONLYS, If only I hadn't, if only I had...Its human nature I suppose, to feel guilt when there's a crisis or in my case, the loss of a loved one. It's human nature to feel somehow responsible. Like we could or would have changed things that would somehow alter the course of life. In reality this is not even feasible and we must know that, must accept it on a deeper level. I repeat to myself each day:
TODAY I WILL CHOOSE JOY.
I won't lie, sometimes I must say it more than once a day to remind
myself not to linger in a place of regret, of sorrow, of ifs and maybes. If I can't be in the here and now then I'm robbing my family, my friends but most of all myself of the gift that each day is. Grief creeps back in, it always will, but I'll be ready because I am greatly blessed, highly favored and deeply loved by the King. The Saviour of the World. El shaddai. Thank you Lord, for the amazing grace that is ALWAYS sufficient!
Tags: Grief And Loss
